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December 7th, 2009
01:49 pm - WRITERS BLOCK!!!
Okay, so I am supposed to be writing an essay Poe and the role that dark humor plays in both his poetry and short stories...I am completely STUCK!!! The essay is due Wednesday, but I wanted to get it in today for extra credit...UGH!!! Anyone got a Poe essay laying around...LOL
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December 4th, 2009
06:59 pm
It has been a while since I posted last, but it has been a rough couple of months...Lee has been gone for almost a month and this time around really sucks!!!! I dont know what it is about this deployment that is different, but it is something...My husband is in a less dangerous place, with no work to do, since they are not flying unless they are needed...They are playing video games, board games, cards, and reading books and magazines during their shifts...He gets 1 day off a week, and instead of calling home and talking to us for a longer amount of time than usual or trying to get onto the internet to see us, he is at the hanger playing and bs-ing with the guys that he works with...They dont have a DSN line to call home for free, he had to get a cell phone, which allows us to call and talk to him whenever, but he seldom answers it (and we know he has nothing to do because he complains about having no work to do and it being pointless to be on 12 hour shifts etc)...He made several promises to Katelynn that he would send her letters every week and he hasnt even sent a single one...We check the mail every day and the past 3 days, she has told me that daddy promised her that he was going to write to her and he hasnt, that he lied to her....What am I supposed to say to that?? It's not like he is busy and has no time to write a couple words on a piece of paper and put it in the mail...Hell, she has written him 4 letters in the last 2 weeks...I am having a really hard time with this...Lee is up for re-enlistment in December 2010, so he is within his window to re-up while he deployed...Previously, we have discussed this at length...He told me that he wanted to stay in for good and retire and I am okay with that decision, because he had goals that he wanted to reach...Now, as of this past Tuesday, he told me that he wants to get out and find a civilian job...He doesnt understand that there are barely any jobs out there...I have tried to explain that I myself have been looking for a job for over a year and still have not found another one...If he gets out of the military, we will end up moving in with his mother and step dad and the 8 other people living with them in their 2 bedroom 1 bathroom house, or we will be at my parent's housebecause we cannot afford anything by ourselves...I understand that he doesnt want to be deployed again and that he doesnt want to leave his family again, but I dont want to be on the street either!!! I dont want to force him to stay in, but I dont want to be forced to give up our freedoms and the enjoyment of being able to take care of ourselves and not have to rely on family for a place to live and food to eat...Is that so wrong?? Enough venting...Later!!
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September 14th, 2009
06:01 pm - It's that time again...Here we go...
Lee just got his deployment orders this afternoon....That is all I have to say right now...It's #3!!!! I will post more later...I am feeling a little surreal right now...It never seems real until he gets his orders...
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September 3rd, 2009
06:41 pm - Miss Kaylee again
Okay, so nevermind about the 1 tooth....She has 2 on the bottom!!!!!! They are SHARP too!!! YIKES!!!
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01:22 pm - Miss Kaylee...
just cut her first tooth in today!!! The one next to it is coming in too....My baby girl is growing up!!! She is already 4.5 months old!!! Where has the time gone??? Oh yeah and thanks to Lee, she likes the taste of cheeseburgers...Shame on daddy!!! LOL
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September 2nd, 2009
01:21 pm - ???
Why is nothing I do ever good enough for anyone??
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August 31st, 2009
12:57 pm - worried now...
Okay, I just looked at her tags and 90% of her entries are now private...I am worried now...Did something happen and I was too lazy to come on here in forever and then I missed it?? I really hope everything is okay!!!
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12:53 pm - Updates??
I was checking my friend's journals and for some reason, Emily isnt showing up...We are both still mutual friends, but it wont let me see any of her journal entries!! I hope nothing bad happened with them or Anja!!! Anyone else having this problem??
Thanks!
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July 2nd, 2009
09:37 pm - Mother Nature for the lose!!!
WELL...Kaylee will be 2 months and 2 weeks old tomorrow and guess what present I got??? THATS RIGHT!!! I got my period again!!! Almost 3 years without one and BOY I forgot how much they SUUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!!! I stopped nursing her (for selfish reasons, I wanted to take my weight loss pills and lose weight fast, but I gained some back, instead of losing it because I quit nursing ) and I really want to start again. I still have milk there and it actually squirts out when I squeeze...LOL...TMI....HAHAAA!!!! I started taking Fenugreek yesterday and have felt a slight difference today...I have also been nursing Kaylee on each side for at least 10 minutes each before I give her the bottle to stimulate production...Any other suggestions??? Anyone??? I really want to do this again and I am determined to do it!!! She is making the swallowing noises and everything like they say she should and she is only taking 4oz of formula after she nurses versus the 6oz she eats without the boob...ANY ADVICE IS GREAT!!!
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June 29th, 2009
11:01 pm - New post
on the book's journal...You should check it out...I put the mock cover and title on there...Let me know what you think!!!!!!!!
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June 27th, 2009
12:56 pm - Whore me out!!!
LOL...I have created a journal for the book...Please friend me and forward the journal to ALL of your military friends and family and even prior service military friends and family...I want to get the word out and I want to have as much information as I can!!! Thanks to you all and kisses from my family to yours!!!
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sep_survivors There we go!!!!!!!!
PS, that is not the name of the book, no name as of yet, just something I thought would fit the current idea of the book!! LATER!!!
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11:50 am - A book???
I woke up at 2am Thursday morning. It came to me...I really want to write a book...Not just any kind of book though...I want to write a book as a sort of guide to first time deployements (for spouses/kids/family members...I want to include a story from as many people and as many states as I can and have each person that submits a story to me, to include a top 5 or 10 to surviving the first deployment...All branches, kids, parents, wives, husbands and even the deployed persons...I want to know what you/they went through during that first time away, I want know what was missed, what was gained, what was lost and what was found and how contact was kept, how the homecomings and the goodbyes went, you know, THE WHOLE STORY!!!
Is this a good idea? I mainly want to market it towards FRG's and other organizations that help seperated families. I dont just want those that were sent to war, those that were also sent on unaccompanied tours are also very welcome!!!
I am going to try and start it next month if I get the courage to start it!!! Would all of you guys submit your story for this???? I want you first and foremost, because every one of your stories are different, intriging (SP?) and one of a kind!!!
Let me know what you think? Would you have bought or wanted a book like this going through your first deployment/seperation from your spouse, just to get a little insight as to how things roll?
Also, HOLLY....What was the website you used to publish your book yourself?? Thanks hun, hope the vacation went well!!! Loves and kisses from me and the girls!!!
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June 24th, 2009
01:16 pm - Excited
I think everyone should join sparkpeople.com. There is so much information and awesomness on there!!! If you join, use my name as a referral "knksmommy"...HAVE FUN!!!!
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June 23rd, 2009
03:03 pm - Back to the grind!!!!
So I took my measurements today...I weighed in at 188lbs...My goal after 6 months is 130. Not sure if that is a reasonable goal, but thats where I want to be before I start my Major in school and where I want to be when Lee deploys later this year.
Here are the measurements:
| Date | Weight | Neck | Bust | Shoulders | Arm | Ribs | Waist | Stomach | Hips | Thighs | Inner Knee | Calf | Ankle | Total Inches | | 23-Jun-09 | 188.00 | 14.75 | 43.00 | 45.00 | 13.00 | 38.25 | 37.25 | 41.75 | 44.25 | 37.25 | 17.25 | 14.75 | 9.50 | 356.00 |
I want to lose about 50 inches total, or gain muscle to make the inches look better!!! I am in a size 14/16 right now...I want to be in a size 10/12 by the 4th of July...Wish me luck!!!!
I also need some TUNES!!! I am getting bored with the music I have...What are your favorite running songs...
I started taking my MRC supplements yesterday (the ones I took to lose a bunch before Lee came home) and I feel great!!! I also have more energy and I have noticed that I am staying fuller longer!! WHOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!
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12:00 pm - Bobby
One year ago today, a very close friend made a decision that forever changed his life and lead to his untimely death...Please, BUCKLE UP!!!!!!
I cannot believe it has been a year since the accident that ultimately killed Bobby!! He was in the house yesterday and early this morning...He was in my parents house Saturday when they were packing things up...My husband thinks I am nuts, but I know when he is here!!!! When he is around, I hear something about Alabama football, boy scouts, soccer, or I find his picture in a random stack of papers or in a drawer that it wasnt in before....Please, BUCKLE YOUR SEAT BELTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It could mean the difference between your death or a couple of bruises and the ability to walk away!!!!!!!
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June 1st, 2009
05:15 pm - Something I ate??
The other night (Friday night) I had my mom's saurkraut and cabbage rolls for dinner...As expected, I had gas and a couple BM's, but DD2 has had water poops since Saturday morning...No seeding, just water like...Still Mustard yellow and she is back to pooping 4-6 times, whereas the last 2 weeks it was once every other day...How long does it take for food from 3 days ago to pass through my milk? Is she still getting the effects of i? She is 6 weeks and 3 days old...I also thought it might be a growth spurt too...Any suggestions?? Thanks alot in advance!!!
6 weeks down with the boob, many more to come!!!!
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May 18th, 2009
10:26 am - HELP me ladies!!!!
I am still waiting to be approved for the bf community, but I need help!!! I think I am losing my milk!!!!! Baby is barely getting enough from what I can tell and I am drained on both breasts after about 10 minutes of nursing on each side. I have tried pumping right after nursing to make sure she just isnt eating all thats there, but NOTHING comes out...I only have about 3 feedings worth pumped (after 2 weeks of pumping) and I dont want to have to put her on formula just yet...I have been drinking more water thinking it is dehydration, but I need some other ideas...THANKS in advance for any help!!! BTW DD is 4 weeks 1 day old...
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May 15th, 2009
08:03 pm - PPD
So yeah, my PPD is coming back full force...I didnt have it with Katelynn, but it hit me after we lost #2...Now, it again is hitting me...Lee isnt helping it what so ever...My job is to take care of the kids, clean, cook, be a taxi driver, discipline, go to school full time, and do everything...His is go to PT, works a little, come home, sleep, eat, and then go party on the weekends...He gets a fucking break every weekend...Where the hell is mine??? I have completely lost myself and dont even know where to start looking...Anyone know where I went??? I have tried to do everything and raise 2 kids, basically alone, but come on, can't I get some help once a week or something???? Katelynn has been hell on earth for the past couple months and Lee keeps saying how terrible she is and tells her that she is the worst behaving kid he has ever seen...Guess that's my fault because I have been the one taking care of her by myself since she was born and now she is acting "like a brat" as Lee puts it...Hopefully I will do a better job with Kaylee since Katelynn turned out so bad (in Lee's eyes)...Enough of my venting, but it IS my blog...Later all!!!
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May 9th, 2009
09:18 pm - Update and new BF????'s
Okay, well apparently, my Husband is the poop coaxer...LOL...I went to get dinner and sure enough, she pooped...He said it had the consistancy of really crunchy peanut butter...The last time she pooped, was while hubs was watching her the other day and then she quit again...Well, I guess that gets me out of changing poopy diapers??? LOL...
New questions for all the EBM mommies...What do you use to store your EBM? Right now, I am using the platex disposable drop ins (DD drinks those while I am at school/store/etc) because I havent pumped enough to store, it normally gets used shortly after pumping...I have seen pump and seal bags at Walmart and Babies R US and they seem like they would be useful, but I wanted some opinions and maybe other options if those dont work...Where is a good website/article that had a good BF diet/nutritional information for me? I have tried to keep a good diet, but find that I am not really sure what I "need" and what I should have in moderation (other than alcohol and the obvious other things)...And finally, when you pump and only get maybe an ounce or so, do you just add more pumped (from another session) to the newly pumped to make a "serving"? Is it safe to add to previously EBM?
I feel so un-informed this time around...Thanks for your advice!!!!
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03:53 pm - No more tags???
Well, I went to the community to look this up in the TAGS, but there were no tags showing up...
ANYWHO...
I have a 3 week old...She is BF and only BF...She has not had a BM since Thursday...She has been really gassy and pushing like she has to go, but nothing is coming out...She has the normal wet diapers that BF babies should have just no poop...Is there anything I can give her to help? I have tried warm baths, nursing more often, and massaging her belly...She is really fussy and uncomfy unless she is laying on me and I am patting her back/side/belly firmly...HELP!!!!!!!!!!!
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